What's so important...

I know what's important to me, and who is important to me. I think though that I sometimes forget to show them just how much they mean to me and instead I take them for granted. It is so easy to make excuses. Work, kids, school, sports,and the holidays all easily come to mind as being the big distractions, but they really shouldn't be. Maybe it's just laziness or that I think that they would know how much they mean to me, but I know that's just not the case. Now I've just got to do better. I can't create more time, you know that whole 24 hours in a day thing just can't be manipulated to suit little ol' me, so I've got to do more with what I have.

I think this is a problem faced by many parents. We get so caught up in our kids and their lives that they take over. Once you throw in work and home our spouses suffer. Kids demand a lot of attention. Demand? That can be an understatement at times, but my mind fails me to find a word that would reflect the amount of attention that they will at times require.

My kids,I love them all deeply. I love spending time with them. I love visiting my two older girls and watching them grow into beautiful confident women. The two still at home I love going to their games, meets, performances or often just sitting together at home watching telly or helping with homework. I am so proud of all they accomplish and the talent that they both possess. I also realize I put so much effort into my role as mother to Abate and Fantu as I don't want to let them down.

Kids grow up, they leave home and go off to college. Soon they will have careers and then form their own families. It is my job to teach them and prepare them to be successful adults. One of the best ways I can do that is to show them how to have a loving happy and successful relationship. If I neglect to show my husband that he matters the most to me in life, then soon he will feel as though he doesn't matter. So not only did I fail him, I failed my children. He will drift away, my kids will grow up and leave, and I would be all alone. I don't want to be alone. I cannot imagine being alone. I only see a future that includes growing old with Alan by my side. I love him.

Alan, I love you.